Have you ever heard of the term, "Artificial Sadness"? I have. It came from a witty, downhearted friend who lost his chance of marching with his batchmates this graduation.

I was trying to console him from the weight he was carrying, considering at that time, his parents were still unaware of the situation. I told him that when people choose to be sad, they become sad and are comforted by this feeling that's why they tend to long for it when forlorn moments pass.

He then said that artificial sadness is blissful but real sadness is suicidal. Can I justify that his sadness is artificial or if his sadness was real then should he be left to linger on such depressing emotional state?

Emotions are triggered by thoughts, thoughts are triggered by events. If he had the opposite experience at that moment. Let's say he will be marching along with his batchmates this graduation. The event implies positive thoughts that lead to positive emotions such as happiness. Is he experiencing real happiness or is he just having artificial happiness?

In the first place what is the difference of artificial and real emotions if there are such? As to how I understood the implied definition of his use of such term, artificial emotions are those people choose to embrace for purpose of being comforted by them while real emotions are brought about by happenings in ones environment wherein one does not have the luxury of choosing whether to accept the emotions or not.

If that's the case then I should say, how can you ever identify emotions from being real to artificial if you can decide (meaning use your thougths) to bring about the emotions you have? Since emotions are brought about by thoughts and not directly by events then feelings are controlled and do not simply lie on the event as to whether one becomes happy or sad.

Even if the rest of the world does not agree with what I want in my life, I choose not to quit and I'm happy about it. It doesn't matter what happens, what matters is how I deal with them.

He may have lost a graduation march this school year (as the event), but if he did not look at that experience as devastating, frustrating and suicidal (as thoughts brought about by the event) and instead chose to be enthusiastic, challenged and perserverant then he wouldn't be SAD.

It's all in the mind! If I say I am happy, am I really happy? I am, if that's want I think and believe hard enough to feel, no matter what happens.



poor argument?! haha

* He's okay now. He'll be working in Visayas for a while before going back to school again.

Good morning everyone.

I just read my earlier posts and I bet you think I am so damned with the world. (LOL)

And so I am here today (bahay), writing at this very moment (5:13 am) to redeem myself from the negative aura I've been releasing. (haha)

I have my friendster blog that reflects my vagaries and mood swings. I have my  5 totally alter egocentric blogspots. The 1st one is "chris", that shouts my demonic self. You'd never think I'm capable of saying stuff in there. Second is "Christine's page" that is so far my most refreshing blog account for it encompasses all my success. (Thank God they're in plural form) 3rd is "vagaries of the heart" that showcases the -emo- in me. "Mine"  my forth blog that is somewhat the serious, business blog because I submitted that account for viewing in an online journalism class I took last february.Plus my 5th blog that I was forced to do as requirement in my English 112 (Academic Writing) Class.

*i have friends in this site that happen to know me too much that they'd probably make fun of me the rest of my life if they get hold of these blog accounts so there wont be any sharing of such urls. hehehe*

However, I made one wholesome and people friendly blog account to quiet the eerie noise of those requesting the above urls. Introducing, my blissful self in http://blissfulsoul-iamhappy.blogspot.com that counters the "bliss of confusion" blog name in my friendster.

That's the sweet, supremely delightful me in there. (LOL)

Do you guys know the song "bad day" by daniel powter? It goes like:

Where is the moment we needed the most 
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost 
You tell me your blue skies fade to grey 
You tell me your passion's gone away 
And I don't need no carrying' on 

You stand in the line just to hit a new low 
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go 
You tell me your life's been way off line 
You're falling to pieces every time 
And I don't need no carrying' on 

Cause you had a bad day 
You're taking one down 
You sing a sad song just to turn it around 
You say you don't know 
You tell me don't lie 
You work at a smile and you go for a ride 
You had a bad day 
The camera don't lie 
You're coming back down and you really don't mind 
You had a bad day 
You had a bad day 

Seriously, I'm in a state of emotional breakdown.  okay okay. STOP. I won't share my nonsensical burst of negative energy that will only burden your reading wellness. But the point is, I'm sad and I don't know why. Well actually  I do and I don't want to know because that will make me want to stop which is what I really want but I don't want at the same time.

 WAAAAAAHHHH. I've exerted so much pressure on my negative self which is so ironic to what I'm trying to exude the past week. Thing is, my day didn't start off as planned and now I feel my entire world is a mess.  GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Too much for the so long "not blogging mode".  Shut up to myself.
This is isn't worth my time. huhu

Well well well, it has been quite a while since I  last had the urge to write something in this ghost account. Here i am, trying to figure what to write.  I can't seem to have collective thoughts lately so i'll be sharing some nonsense.

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The word of the day is "serenity" noun for serene.According to Encarta Dictionary it means calm and untroubled; without worry stress or disturbance.

Out of my usual self I find this word very disturbing. How can one seemingly impossible notion be of use in this hopeless crap we call world?  Can it ever be possible that you will find serenity in this generation's lifetime? The world is too damned with  unreliable people and unjustifiable events that even in the simplest forms of interaction there is an outstanding amount of stress to deal with. The agony of living with the rest of humanity is taunting by itself because it is through the process of creating shared meaning that one meets a point of conflict with another and therefore leaving disturbance, stress, trouble and agitation inevitable in every circumstance.

On second thought, nah! I'm just fuzzing around feeling a little blue! This crap (world)  is better off this way. A state of serenity may not be reachable but the thought of it is worth trying. After all, we have nothing else to do but try.


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fin


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midterms week and I haven't even read my notes yet

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ciao

i actually have nothing to talk about in this freedom writing area of my multiply profile. It's october fest month and the last time I wrote was still a September so I feel compelled to write something for the sake of writing something. haha

What to say???????????????????????????

"The world is full of happiness that I have never known". Sounds familiar? It's part of the "on my own" song sung by kim in les miserables. (what about it?) Well nothing much if you don't care about the world and all! But if you do, it opens up a new idea to live by for the rest of your life... or so I exaggerate! heehee 

If you think about it, how much time do you spend being happy, smiling, laughing, enjoying, compared to the time spent being worried, frustrated, sad, desperate, problematic,stressed and emotional? hmmmmmmmm. In my case, duh, I'm still pessimistic in general! huhuhuhuhuh.

Putting in mind the statement: The world is full of happiness that I have never known, I can infer that if we look into the happy side of the road and try to recover the happiness that is hiding behind road signs, the ride will be smoother and funner. (or something like that. I bet you already know what I mean. You don't? Then just smile, smile, smile,smile, smile, and keep smiling.

Yup! I keep telling myself to do just that. You should too. Smiling is a form of exercise you know-meaning we become healthier in doing something as easy as that. (kaya smile na!) haha

The end...

 lapit na Christmas! yeepee... wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhh  

Fin...

=)

 

whaaaaaaaaaa!

It's September already, only 3 months more its christmas break na, well sembreak pa muna...okay,okay, finals pa!

hmmmmmmmmmmm

The real essence of living is not based on the achievements gained or awards received but on the approach given to every endeavor passing by. In genuinely valuing the experiences coming my way, life is more fulfilled and becomes magis just as it is.

but

With that being true, should I be contented with mediocrity? Should this become an alibi for low standards and accepting more failures and disappointments?

Of course not!

What then am I doing to prevent such humiliation?

Know my priorities.

Why am i even writing this???

I've got more important things to do...

 

later

I really don't know how to say this...

Okay I won't say it, or maybe i will, or not, waaaahh!

Crazy me! Enough with the nonsense.

What happened to me today??? Nothing just yet, it's 15 minutes past the day's hour so what actually could have happened within this period? (ehehehe)

I haven't seen my obsession  for two days now... I miss the sight already...(uuuyyy,senti)

signing off...

Looking at things in the brighter side isn't too "hopeful" after all. Life can actually be just the way you wanted it to be when you approach optimistically to whatever comes your way.

It's taunting how the world can push you down  in a split second while you're in a verge of succeeding then pull you back around by giving something better. Just this week, I felt like it's the 4th grading period of senior high. Midterms, projects, extra-curricular activities, personal necessities and all, came rushing right through me like a bullet where time was of the essence. It's unavoidable and I don't' have enough time to think on how to deal with them.

"I tried my best, but i guess my best wasn't good enough" as the song goes. Maybe this was a wake up call from God for me to take action of some sort. The result was disappointing!!!  (don't' ask what happened).

With all the misery, God granted me a consolation prize by letting me join an impromptu event that resulted to mind recking, time restraining actions but ended up in victorious success.

Seems like...lingering on success is better than lingering on failures. But  I'm not complaining because these failures help you appreciate success in greater depths.

hahahahhaha!

Well with considerably tremendous amount of energy spent inviting people to become contacts of miNe, a level of success is achieved! hahaha LOL (Can I be more obvious with the fact that desperation can never be separated with motivation? Or at least in my case...wehhh)

i'm just enjoying, better yet, full of zest that people I invited are insane enough to accept my invitation despite the clumsy notion by the cursor  warning them to accept only if they really know the person...which for sure they don't.  wahahaha.. is this schizophrenia in the making?

don't mind reading this blog... i'm just hooked with the very first Jonathan Kellerman Novel i'm reading (anong konek?) well...if you've read OVER THE EDGE...get me?? still NO! hahaha

 

signing off...

I can't believe i'm exerting a lot of time and effort inviting peepz to add me up.LOL

hmmm, update: I'd be in school after typing this.

finally, initiation day! i'm joining KASAMA- our school's ASSP org under the Scholarship's office (nosebleed) haha

Excited???? no, not really! heheheheheh

but i am in grave desperation to be part of another org aside from those under my course department so then maybe i can consider "excitement" a part of the millions of emotions rushing through me right now! hahahah

(Caution: stop reading the nonsense statements to follow!)

I'm in deep trouble! other people are starting to know about the ewan tripping but true though  i'm not sure feelings i think i have for this one guy that i have never met but seem to long for every single day!! really bad stuff---- i'm not supposed to bring it to the next level! iiiissshshshshshsh 

 

should i even be uttering such words?! waaaaaaahhhhhh! hush Christine! HUSH!

Bow!